Oh No! Not again

'Well begun is half done'
How True, Its never well done
I started well,
Firm on my feet
Surfing with ease
I thought, A gud ending in prospect
A moment of indecision Cost me dear.
Oh No! I had done that before
It was my core
Now its no more
Mind said 'No', but Heart superceded
There went everything awry
It peeled my confidence
Throwing me out of my sense
Putting me in defense
And Finally sealed my end.

Then came the post mortem
And the blame game
No one talks about success
When you fail badly
Even trivia is deadly
Heard some utter
'Conditions were inclement'
''You were unlucky"
'You should have been more tough'
Can somebody just stop them?
Added up the frustration
Defeat is agonising
My heart is still paining
How i could have avoided?
And finally 'Why me'?
Oh No! Not again

Came home with a dull face,
With no one to embrace
Mouthed few filthy sounds
Got Tired and lied on the ground
Dont know when i slept
Waking up i said
"Its just another defeat"
'Bitter ones are yet to come''
"You are born like that''
Learn from mistakes''
I dont know whether it makes me wise
But, atleast helps in giving advice :)